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From Balderdash To Epiphany and all thoughts in between by Tom Balistreri
Saturday, 28 May 2011
You Are Not Good Enough To Be In Ministry.
Now Playing: You Are Not Good Enough To Be In Ministry.

You are not good enough to be in ministry. I probably am even less qualified than you. But the good news is that it doesn’t disqualify us from having a ministry.

It took me a long time to realize this. Which is a little distressing because I could have been contributing to the Body Of Christ so much sooner.

Back in the 70s’ I had a band that would perform a set of songs by Elvis as part of our show. This went over big with the audience as you can imagine.

I was often requested to sing “How Great Thou Art”  but I never added that song to the show. I felt I was not worthy to sing that song in public. That was too bad because many in the audience might have benefited from hearing a gospel song. Looking back I also think it would have been interesting  to see the reaction of it being performed in a bar. But an opportunity was lost because of my self perception of being not a “good enough” Christian.

I was raised Roman Catholic. Went to parochial grade school. I always believed Jesus was the son of God for as far back as I can remember. But the Catholic schools (at least the one I went to in the 60s’.) didn’t do a good job of  catechesis back then.

I didn’t know the reason why Christ came and had to suffer and die for us.

Then along came Christian television. Late at night after a gig I would lay in my bed trying to unwind and would watch the PTL Club (which was a two hour show back then. And they had a great band.) and other Christian shows. There I learned the details about the plan of salvation. Not knowing the difference between renewal and rebirth, and not sure if my infant baptism counted, I said the sinners prayer one night. Then again another night. And again another half dozen times. I wanted to be sure.

Now I have read and seen on T.V countless testimonies about how making Jesus Lord of your life instantly changed a person. Old habits ceased. Friends  immediately noticed a change  and fulfillment and  success followed as they grew and led others into God’s kingdom.

It didn’t happen that way for me. I’m slow when it comes to change. Even when it’s for the better. If you don’t believe me then ask my wife. I did begin to read the bible everyday. I have read it cover to cover at least a dozen times in addition to daily readings. I began to have new insight into the scriptures and studied and read countless Christian books on a variety of subjects. I went to church, but here I confess I didn’t attend regularly.

But I still continued doing things I thought were sinful. I struggled to overcome and would have temporary victories. But I would eventually give in to temptation and find my self in a state of “Not Worthy”.

I suppose compared to others my sins would not be considered great. Some may not even think they are sins. But my conscious seemed convinced and this led me to believe I couldn’t  do anything publicly in the name of Christ because of the potential of bringing disgrace to His name if my secrets were discovered.

My secrets probably would have caused most people to yawn.

Still I thought folks in ministry had it all together. Then I began to witness the scandals of the televangelists. These were men who I respected and were doing great things. Well,  some of the things they were doing weren’t so great.

It seems like hardly a week goes by without reading about the failings of ministers nationally and even locally.

Then it dawned on me. These people are human. They’re imperfect. They make mistakes. They need a savior. Just like I do!

God works through flawed and imperfect people. Because that’s all He has to work with.

Consider this:

Abraham was inpatient waiting for God’s promise and had a child by his wife’s’ maidservant.

Jacob got his blessing through lies and deceit.

Moses had a problem with self esteem and public speaking.

Samson was a womanizer.

Rahab was a prostitute.

Jonah ran from God.

Elijah was depressed.

David had an affair and was a murderer.

Peter denied Christ.

And the list could go on. But God was able to use all of these flawed individuals.

I’m not saying that it’s OK to have habitual sin in your life. But if you wait until you are perfect to do anything for God you’ll never be ready.

Pray for forgiveness, repent, study your bible, then get out there and do something.

If God has called you…you’re qualified!

Posted by thomasbmusic at 7:35 PM EDT
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